I can't help it.

Time goes by faster with Ahsoka.

Sunday 12 December 2023, 6:01AM

As I check the date and time on my phone and write it here to begin journaling, I can sense the time is going by and life is moving forward by the minute, especially in this last month of the year. Some days I panic when I do this. Some days I am excited about the day ahead, especially when there’s a good plan or special activities. Most days I am conscious about setting the intention to make the most of my day. Life is not waiting for me no matter what I have going on. And my time with CooCoo (nick name for Ahsoka) is going by seven times faster. I finished another painting of CooCoo yesterday and am looking at it now with mixed emotions, the nostalgia of a past experience when she had a surgery requiring her to wear the cone and satisfaction from a completed painting. Painting Ahsoka is a way for me to slow down the time and to really see her in a particular moment. Each painting of her is to highlight an event with her without scrolling through thousands of pictures. With this, I’ll be more intentional when choosing an activity to paint, but that would be a difficult task. Every interaction with CooCoo is precious, whether I realized at the time or later. I’m supposed to spend more time on other projects, but I can’t help it. The good girl is always around me. She’s lying outside of my studio sleeping right now.